woe is me.

I’ve been a stay-at-home-mom for a little over 4 years now. In the midst of a few of those years I was a full-time student: applied mathematics and computer science. Yep, that was me ——> one with the nerd herd: hanging out in the math lounge, telling (lame) math jokes, laughing hysterically at said lame math jokes and hoping to hear more. Spending hours, yes HOURS, and sheets and SHEETS of paper on ONE problem, being so enthusiastic about finally solving it and having a huge surge of FUCK YES! flow through my body when my answer was riiiight biatch when compared to the one in the back of the book. That euphoric state of mind was soon relinquished when realization set in: I still had 12 problems to go. *%$@$@%$$@!!!

Anywho, where I’m going with this is that I haven’t been a student for over year. I miss school. I miss learning. I miss having deadlines and due dates and socializing with uber geeks of a like mind. I miss doing something more than the monotonous routine my life has settled into: feed children, dress children, entertain children, cleeeeean the fuck out of my house, feed children, clean children, LOVE CHILDREN. Repeat. Don’t get me wrong–I love being able to stay home with my girls. These early years are important and I am grateful that I am the one establishing the foundations of their little beings. I love being a mom. I just miss having more to my daily routine. And so I’ve been working on something. Hopefully something big (to me) that will allow me to express myself through my talents, make some money AND continue to stay home with these gorgeous little girls I have.

More to come when I know more. =)